Cirlce of Friends

I don't know where my life path is headed, but I know for the most part I'm enjoying the ride. The last couple months have been hard but it's helped me in many ways. Self discovery can be educational, fulfilling, scary and humbling. I have always been a strong personality. Don't take any crap, stick to my guns, aggressive person. I also don't ask for help. If it's a team environment I'm usually in charge leading the others. If it's at home I'm leading my family. I'm the mother, father, care giver, bread winner and whatever else they may need. The last couple months due to my employment status I've kind of slacked in the bread department. No more "dough" for me. This has made things difficult to say the least. I've found that my friends love me more than I ever knew. One picks me up just so we can spend time together. One I haven't seen in years brought me groceries and another put gas in my car so I could take my son to an important appointment. I'm so grateful for these people and hope that one day I can do for them in the same magnitude they have done for me. I'm not the type of person to take these things easily. I used to feel that I was giving in and accepting my inadequacies and self defeat by accepting help. But I've recently come to see that these people and others aren't helping because they don't think I can do it, but because it's what people do when they care about someone. I would be the first to try to help them if the situation was reversed. I also know that it would hurt my feelings if they refused my help. I've never looked at it from the other perspective, but now that I have it's easier for me to accept their offers and see love on their faces instead of pity. I can truly say I  am surrounded by some of the best people in the world and I'm honored to call them my friends.