How Did I Do?

My life has been far from simple. There has been excitement, happiness, love, pain, suffering and loneliness. I have many accomplishments and many downfalls. And through all these things I've wondered if he was watching me. Was his invisible hand patting me on my shoulder as I struggled through school? Was he standing tall behind me when I got married? Did he cry for joy when my children were born? Was he catching the tears I cried when my marriage ended? Did he silently push me ahead as I advanced in my career? Did he share my emotions throughout all the events of my life? I've always imagined him there with me, good and bad. I've also imagined him there watching over my children as they grow. I can only hope that he has and that even though I have made many mistakes, he is proud of me and my children. One day I will ask him, "Daddy, how did I do?".